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Why you should consider the radical approach

I got into a discussion last night with my boyfriend about his “not-so-radical” stance that he takes on everything.
 
Him: Cops should be accountable
Me: We should get rid of cops entirely
Him: We need jail for some people.
Me: Get rid of jails, too!
Him: Money should not be printed at the whim of the Federal Reserve.
Me: END THE FED! 

You get it.  So he wants things to be on the “middle ground.”  I want things completely different.  But even though he wants the middle ground, I see the most effective way to get there is to be “radical.”

Let’s use a good ‘ol wall analogy.  Say the wall represents everything you hate about society and you want to tear that thing down.  Or it’s just a wall that you want to change to be different because honestly it is quite an eyesore!  It’s a huge wall made of titanium though.  Honestly, you don’t stand a chance on your own.  Maybe you can put a little knick in it — but you’ve got to try.  So you throw a rock really hard against a wall and you do, indeed, leave a tiny mark!  Yes!  You worked really hard, you went “radical” and something bad happened to the evil wall.

Now say you’re taking the “middle ground,” which in this case, would be standing a decent distance from the wall and maybe kicking a little dirt at it.  It begins to rain and the dirt washes off.  Darn.  And then you just start yelling things at the wall.  It’s still there.

My point is that in order to get to the middle ground, you need to “go radical.”  To put any dent in the evils and problems that we face, you need to go big.  Many look at protesters, petitioners and people who make their whole life about “the fight” in disdain, but that is what is changing things to the point that is fair and accountable for all.  Go big or go home — that’s what will make progress that keeps middle grounders satisfied and “radical” people at least semi-happy! 

— 3 weeks ago with 1 note
#libertarian  #liberty  #police brutality  #end the fed  #protests 
Libertarian Brutalism Defined.

Libertarian brutalism, noun, 1. a CIA op to incite in-fighting among the libertarian community, 2. an excuse for lazy libertarians to make it seem like they’re actually doing something under the geise of a computer screen, 3. an outlet for insecure libertarians to seek revenge for being bullied or picked on when they were young, also see: sexual frustrated libertarianism, 4. libertarians who practice the exact opposite of what they preach, inherent in their objective belief of being the correct form of libertarianism

— 1 month ago
#libertarian  #libertarian brutalism  #liberty  #freedom  #politics  #philosophy 
Moving forward, but doing the same things.

I suppose you learn more from experience, but I’m starting to realize that I’m just doing the same things over and over again… in different ways.  It is starting to get boring!

For example — traveling.  I’m traveling in the same ways, going to the same places.

I’m making crafts using the same materials.

Loving with the same love that I’ve always had.

Being awkward and goofy, same old insecurities.

Learning and studying in the same way that I always have been.

Going to bed, waking up… 

I guess I’m getting bored with life.  More experienced, but bored.

Not sure how I can spice things up…

— 2 months ago
#life  #bored 
Thoughts on Political Identity

Sometimes I like to reflect back when I was in high school and think about when I was starting to think about where I fell and should fall on the spectrum.

I remember thinking that I wanted to be conservative or republican, because most of the successful and wealthy people were there.  And by successful and wealthy, I meant in a professional and staunch way.  Yes, I was going for straight stereotypes when I was 12-17 years old, obviously.  Liberal people were also professional, but they were also a little nutty and often professors, teachers or some artistic profession.  I was thinking at the time that I wanted to be a lawyer, so I thought that being republican would be the way to go.

Why did I want to write about this?  Because I see this same mentality with adults.  Not just my age, but people three times my age.  People who seem to think that being republican and religious makes them have some kind of respected status symbol as being, well, more rich.  And people who think that being democrat means they’re into the government allow all people just the right amount of freedom to have a good time while supplying them with limitless housing, food, and whatever is trendy at the time.  Both types of people seem to be very successful — as in they landed the right 9-5 job or were born into riches — and both oh-so-frustrating to see debating in the news.

Anyway, yes, I “wanted to be” a republican because of the stereotype.  To me, it meant success, cha-ching and status symbol.  That makes me wonder now if people, like I did when I was in high school, find their political identities through similar circumstances.  By thinking this, yes, I am assuming that people are that base.  If you know me, I often have a low opinion of other people.  But when I see how people represent these identities, with no founding in fact, my opinion is verified.  

Examples:

  • "I have a very good friend who is gay and his partner and him are the most loving, caring and parental two people that I have ever met.  However, I will stand with my conservative counterparts and hold the opinion that these two should not be allowed, by law, to marry and adopt children."  
  • "Even though there are plenty of opinions for me to get birth control, from Planned Parenthood to a general physician, I think that government should pay for me to be on which ever type that I choose.  While personally I don’t like to be forced to go through with the other easily accessible and affordable choices, I believe the taxpayers should be forced to pay for me.  I believe this is showing how ‘in control’ and individualistic of a person that I am."

As usual, I’m pointing out the flaws in the two-party system.  That’s not to say that other political groupings do not hold hypocrisies and/or make no sense.  In both those examples, we see a lack of individual rights and a demand on other people, to change them, to the way that we deem fit for our utopian society.  While a Christian will say to “love all of God’s children,” they’ll go ahead and tell another person they cannot freely love themselves.  A liberal will cry out for her own positive rights to be paid for by stripping the negative rights of other people. 

So what am I saying about political identity?  I’m saying to look into your heart and find your principles.  I’m not saying be so principled that you’re a robot.  Find the principles that represent and sanctify yourself as an individual.  You’re stuck in a world living with people whose principles are different from yours.  There’s no way around that. So when you come up with your own list or book (yes, really), keep in mind you can’t force other people to do what you want them to and you can’t hurt other people.  History has proven that method to be fallible, so be smart, learn from the mistakes of the past.  If you’re picking an identity because it “looks cool,” you’re probably lying to yourself.  If you’re picking an identity because “it’s the only option,” then make your own damn option.  The choice is yours to live peacefully, successfully and progressively with both yourself and your surroundings.  

— 2 months ago with 1 note
#politics  #left right spectrum  #libertarian  #republican  #conservative  #democrat  #democrats  #liberal  #liberals  #birth control  #hobby lobby  #same sex marriage  #gay rights  #lgbtq  #thoughts  #political identity 
Rooting for America in the World Cup Means Rooting for Bad Things

Ugh.  When I watch this World Cup nonsense, well, more like people watch the watchers, I feel sick to my stomach.  People come out of the woodwork to watch these games simply because America is competing — do they even like football (soccer, ya dummies).

When it comes to politics, it seems as if the country is divided.  This is not the country that they want to live in because it does not represent their beliefs, hence why people are in endless political debate.  So — why root for a sports team that represents that country?  Even if that country is not as totalitarian as they want it to be, “Gays are getting married!,” they are rooting for America, thus rooting for a country that allows such things to happen.  To me, it just doesn’t make sense!  Are that many people content with the way things are to love ‘mmmerica? 

Personally, when I see people rooting for America, all that I can think is that these people support all the worst things this country represents.  War.  Drug War.  Debt.  World policing.  Discrimination.  Economic restrictions.  Social restrictions.  I can’t see the “American dream” and all the things that America did represent or never represented (sweet propaganda). 

Go America = Go bad things!

— 2 months ago
#world cup  #america  #propaganda  #drug war  #war  #soccer  #foot ball 
Life is always best when moving forward…

Are you living where you want to be?
Is the world around you what you want to see?
Are you concentrating enough on “me?”

(And that is the extent of my poetic abilities.)

— 3 months ago
#motivation  #moveon  #life  #quotes 
Phosphatidylserine Complex Review

What a rush!  

Yesterday I got my shipment in from the Vitamin Shoppe — spent WAY too much money, but that’s okay.  The main focus of my purpose was, well, focus.  Also a little bit of “mood enhancing” as I can be quite a negative Nancy and get down a lot when stressed (always) and I tend to focus on the wrong things.  So, what’s the “miracle pill” that can get me out of my funks, focus on work and be optimistic about the future?  

I often take 5-HTP for a little mood enhancing, often times it helps a little bit combined with doing something that makes me happy.  Concentration?  Doesn’t really help me.  But for someone who feels her serotonin is too low and needs a boost to “fake it” in public or when dealing with humanity on a regular basis, yeah, it helps.

So, back to the miracle pill scenario.  You hear a bunch of stuff online about prescription drugs, modafinil, provigil, all that kind of stuff.  There are lots of obvious negatives to going that route.  One, you probably have to lie to your doctor and say you have work shift disorder when  really you just need help concentrating during waking hours.  Two, you’re going to be paying an arm and a leg if your insurance sucks (like everyone’s does in the good US of A).  And three, it’s a prescription drug forchrissake.  Big pharma, just don’t trust it!

So I’ve been looking online, researching smart drugs, and I even remember buying phosphatidylserine on its own a while back from GNC for around $50 a bottle.  The worker totally convinced me with his smooth talking as well as simply saying, “This is like adderall,” and being honest with his drug use of the past.  I like honesty, so I gave it a try.  On its own, it worked great for just about everything.  Working out, doing work, feeling better.  I ran out a while ago, and figured I’d finish off my other supplement stash before investing again.

So this time, I got a whopping 90 pills for around $45 from the Vitamin Shoppe online store.  And this time, I figured I’d try the complex variety, to see if there is a reason they mix it up with other things.  I took it yesterday after a long day of writing and working — and I still had MORE work to go, plus I wanted to clean the house, walk the dogs, etc. and so on.  YES, I need a boost!  So I took the pill and I started to take an online test for one of my lovely Fiverr clients.  

I started to feel… something.  I’m expecting the intensity is going to go down as I take this pill every other day from now on, but it definitely hit me like a ton of pebbles at first.  I felt very light, definitely nothing like being on caffeine.  I felt sick about how unhealthy I’ve been lately, how much crap is in my body — I drank a lot of water.  I started thinking a bit too much, but not jittery and teeth grinding-like as experienced with adderall.  The feeling was almost so intense that I could not get work done, but rather walk the dogs, clean the house, something involving movement.  I was kind of all over the place, but not in a bad way.  Eventually it was time to go out and have a couple of drinks with the boyfriend and his old roommate who I had never met.  Hm, would this help me with my social anxiety that I often experience with new people?  

Yes, I would say it made me more comfortable with new people and I felt much better during drinking and the day after — I would say the “lightness” helps in those situations.  I will report back in about a week to talk about if I have had a better time focusing on work with these pills.  I hope so — first time is always the strongest!  

If interested in trying, here is a link to the product:
http://www.vitaminshoppe.com/p/phosphatidylserine-complex-500mg-90-softgels/vs-1539#.U6Hcd_mwKI8

*not being paid to review this product, only my honest opinion here*

— 3 months ago with 1 note
#smart drugs  #limitless  #supplements 
Does Orange is the New Black justify the prison industrial complex?

I have watched about 75% of the first season and I really don’t find prison entertaining… but I’m not going to be a total drag and say that I don’t enjoy the show.  

Maybe I’m missing something… does the show ever show that the prison industrial complex is… wrong?  How many people does it show in jail proportional to the number of people in for victimless crimes?  It seems like many of the main characters are in for ridiculous things, but yes, there are some in for drug trading (Piper of course).  

I think the show does a good job at kinda making the audience say, “Jeez, it’s stupid this chick with extreme white privilege who hasn’t done anything wrong in so and so amount of years should be put in a cage.”  But then I’m sure there are people who are like, “She deserved it.”  And what about the African American and Latino women in jail — do we get to talk about the racial bias of the crime and prison systems in show?  

I don’t think OITNB does a good job at opening up this conversation.  This important conversation.  But it makes me laugh and it has lesbian sex, right?  *sigh*  

— 3 months ago with 2 notes
#OITNB  #orange is the new black  #prison industrial complex  #drug war 
Wow, times change.

It’s funny that one of the few times that Eugene and I have fought was over me claiming that he not helping me enough with math problems.  I got very angry.  Over math.  Me.  

All of my ex-boyfriends are rolling over in their graves.  I didn’t kill them, I swear… ;)

— 3 months ago
#mathproblems 

One of my favorite songs.

— 3 months ago
#alcoholproblems

No matter which way you take it, alcohol, in itself, is a problem.  

You don’t drink.
You have no social life, you’re considered a loser, your best friend can’t drink, your significant other can’t drink.  You miss out on all the coolest parties.  The only time you’ve ever felt a “high” was when you had to take prescription cold medicine.  

You drink once a week.
You may take this opportunity to binge drink, eat junk food and make bad decisions — oops.  You have a awful hangover for the next day (or two).  Either that or you have no tolerance and you’re a two beer queer.  

You drink 2-3 times a week.
You have a great tolerance, that’s for sure, but that can be a problem when it takes 4-5 drinks to even feel a buzz.  Your life is on a consistent “on day/off day” schedule due to hangovers.  You’re the fun one to invite to parties as you are a drinking master, and I’m sure your beer belly doesn’t mind.  

You drink everyday.
Despite what Hollywood wants us to think, you are probably not a functional alcohol (sorry, James Bond).  While your tolerance may tell you that drinking everyday is okay, the tolerance in itself means your mind and body have reached an all time low.  Good luck.

Where does this place you?  

— 4 months ago
#alcoholproblems  #alcohol  #drankin 
Serial entrepreneur takes flight!

A lot has changed in the past few months or so.  Mainly with my “work life,” and while still being self made, things are rather different.

Then:

  • I was mainly dog walking by day, usually I had at least 5 walks a day,sometimes up to 10.  It was ridiculous, but considering the $/hr, it was FANTASTIC.
  • I was performing wedding ceremonies often, sometimes 2-3 a weekend, sometimes 4+ a week total.  
  • I was managing one other dog walker.
  • Ideas to work on books, writing endeavors, didn’t come to fruition because I was setting up other rather successful businesses.
  • I was very happy with the amount of money that I was making, but I’m a workaholic and I was very often tied down.  I had no interest in working for other people, but instead creating partnerships.

Now:

  • One dog walking client that pays me well, but the $/hr is not the best and it takes a lot of time out of the day.  Before, when you’re doing 1, 2, 3, one after another, $ adds up!
  • Dog walks and weddings are “franchised” out to 2-3 people, so the benefit is that I do not do all the work, still get $.  This balances out the above. 
  • I do, on average, one wedding a week.
  • Tried selling e-cigarettes on eBay and they are a BBB complaint waiting to happen on my end — great profit, but lots of regulations.  This is its own blog post.
  • In an act of desperation, because I felt like I wasn’t doing as much as I once was, I worked for a nut for a while who was using and abusing me for minimal amount of $.  He wanted a full-time personal assistant, but claimed I was only part-time.  Yeah, that sucked.
  • I started doing other work on Fiverr, which ends up getting me more than $5 a gig when I find people who need me to do their online classes, which are big $ if you find the right people.  Microgigs can be good $ if you don’t get worked by the system.  There are plenty of people ready to use and abuse you for barely any cash, but you got to fight back.
  • In theory, I should have time to pursue my passions, considering I am “franchising” a lot of my past “image.”  I’m using this theoretical time to write two books, “the Wedding Officiant Guide” and “the Drug War and I.”  
  • Problem is, however, I’m great at making money, and these projects do not have a high return value at first.  I’m thinking both can be rather successful, but the damn scarcity of resources and being unable to live a decent life without working my butt off prevents me from taking time to write them.  /NEED PARADIGM SHIFT IN BRAIN.

Conclusion:

Things change.  I’m trying to get to the point where I work less, make more $, and pursue the passions.  This would be “winning the game.”  We have systematic roadblocks in place in today’s society, where if you want to make $, you have to sacrifice a lot of what you really want to do.  If you can beat those roadblocks or just not care, I suppose you “win.”  

I really, REALLY just want to finish my two books, and I really, REALLY just want people to know me — I want to be famous in some way, damn it!  I think that is my true goal.  I’m selfish, I feel like I have a lot to say, and that my opinions are generally, pragmatically correct most of the time.  My books both have subjects — very specific.  But would people be interested in more of me if they read these books?  The Wedding Officiant Guide would help people start their own businesses, not only in the wedding field, but I would hope the general tone would push them to work for themselves more and break this evil system and learn to be self sufficient and happy!  The Drug War and I can go in two directions — one, I only tell my story, or two, I work with other people and tell my story and theirs as well.  The image on the cover of the book will be a spider web — because the drug war is a filthy trap, first off, and secondly, the web will be “closing in” on the title — symbolizing that just about everyone in America will be affected by the drug war, and soon enough, the web will close and (hopefully) the world will wake up.  

Ramble.  THAT’S where I’m at right now.  Godspeed, Stacy Anne!

— 4 months ago
#entrepreneur  #entrepreneurship  #selfmade  #book  #books  #writing books  #drug war  #weddings  #wedding officiant  #wedding officiant guide 
Why these three are so inspirational to me…
I began watching, obsessively, the Charlie’s Angels movie around the year 2000.  I was a ripe 10-11 years old, my brain pliable, and I was looking for beautiful, smart and kick ass ladies to be my idols.
These three actresses played the three Angels, and offered so many qualities that are extremely important to me now and what inspire me to be all that I can be!
Dylan (Drew Barrymore) taught me to kick f****** a** (yes, like that), do what I want with my own body, be naughty, be serious, get down and dirty, make mistakes, get back up again.  She was the rebel, non-conformist out of the three.  She made a little “oops” by sleeping with the enemy, but hey, we all mess up and she got out of the situation as quickly as she got into it.  
Natalie (Cameron Diaz) was always smiling (such a big smile), having fun, laughing, and have a great time with life.  Even during tough times and struggles, she shrugged them off her with charming personality.  She may seem ditzy because of this, but she is incredibly brilliant!  She ends up finding a genuine man to date (Luke Wilson) and she authenticity shows in the situations involving him.
Alex (Lucy Liu) was the realist, down to Earth, smart, serious — representing the need to be that way in certain situations.  She was smart and not afraid to show it off — while the other two Angels were a little bit crazy, she struggled to be a good girlfriend and care about the home front.  Strict and tough, she can be more detail attentive than the other two.  
Together, you have your kick ass, be crazy, be smart, sexy, powerful, brilliant and wild about life team that is probably the best representation of what a person, especially young ladies, should up to in this world.  
(Oh, and if you’re not convinced, this movie also has Sam Rockwell, Tim Curry and Bill Murray in it, so… get to it).  

Why these three are so inspirational to me…

I began watching, obsessively, the Charlie’s Angels movie around the year 2000.  I was a ripe 10-11 years old, my brain pliable, and I was looking for beautiful, smart and kick ass ladies to be my idols.

These three actresses played the three Angels, and offered so many qualities that are extremely important to me now and what inspire me to be all that I can be!

Dylan (Drew Barrymore) taught me to kick f****** a** (yes, like that), do what I want with my own body, be naughty, be serious, get down and dirty, make mistakes, get back up again.  She was the rebel, non-conformist out of the three.  She made a little “oops” by sleeping with the enemy, but hey, we all mess up and she got out of the situation as quickly as she got into it.  

Natalie (Cameron Diaz) was always smiling (such a big smile), having fun, laughing, and have a great time with life.  Even during tough times and struggles, she shrugged them off her with charming personality.  She may seem ditzy because of this, but she is incredibly brilliant!  She ends up finding a genuine man to date (Luke Wilson) and she authenticity shows in the situations involving him.

Alex (Lucy Liu) was the realist, down to Earth, smart, serious — representing the need to be that way in certain situations.  She was smart and not afraid to show it off — while the other two Angels were a little bit crazy, she struggled to be a good girlfriend and care about the home front.  Strict and tough, she can be more detail attentive than the other two.  

Together, you have your kick ass, be crazy, be smart, sexy, powerful, brilliant and wild about life team that is probably the best representation of what a person, especially young ladies, should up to in this world.  

(Oh, and if you’re not convinced, this movie also has Sam Rockwell, Tim Curry and Bill Murray in it, so… get to it).  

— 4 months ago with 7 notes
#inspiration  #charlies angels  #cameron diaz  #drew barrymore  #bill murray  #sam rockwell  #tim curry  #be all you can be  #kick ass 
Testing.

One, two — crap, I don’t have time for this!

— 6 months ago